yeah..random symbol things. so i haven't done anything for a while. submitted any poems, pictures or anything..truth is, i just don't feel like it. right now i'm kind of..not doin so well. there's a lot of shit going on and i have almost nothing to be happy about. not even drawing or writing...which is sad. and even when i know what to write about or what to draw, something happens and i never get around to it or i immedeately (sp?) lose the idea to the friggen rain cloud smothering me 24/7. yes. 24/7. no sleep. or like 10 minutes here and there. and i can't eat anything either...today was okay i guess. went to a tornament. held churchville 3-3 till the end, had to go to national tie breaker and our player dropped the ball..sadd..but she really gave it her best. she's a really good player-unfortunately her and i..and another player, don't really get the chance to show how bright we can shine. stupid *ficus* coaches...it pisses me off. my boyfriend came to the game today..and basically watched me sit the bench. because of all the other girls who don't even bother to show up any other time, not even on the first day of the weekend tornament, and then when they do show up, those of us who work our asses off for that team are forgotten, because HEY! the DREAM TEAM is here today!! fuck no. hey coach! your dream team fucked up today! jesus. sorry..cheezits. honestly, i'm trying to deal with it and hold on until the day that i get to show that bastard what he let sit the bench while his "stars" slacked off, but if this becomes a pattern, i'm gone. i'll find somewhere where i actually get play time. find someone else you can use as your speedy sub runner, bastard. why don't you just tell your players to lose some weight and/or actually try! *sigh* okay i'm good now. so we lost and went home...now i'm here. tired of shit, and a very unsatisfied with life at the moment.